Author: mrgsponderings

Looking for Jesus

Not Another Christian looking for Christ at Christmas

Recently, I went Christmas shopping and came home with a feeling I did not expect.
Not panic over presents. Not sore feet. Not even shock at the price of wrapping paper.
It was sadness. A quiet sort of sadness, like when you realise something precious has slipped out of sight without anyone noticing.

We were in The Range (a local shop), where Christmas has clearly gone to the gym and bulked up. Six foot lamp-posts with swirling snow inside. Lights that can change colour more often than a toddler changes their mind. Tiny ballerinas spinning in little glass worlds. Foxes dressed as Santa for reasons no theology textbook can explain. Carousels and wheels all moving in perfect mechanical cheer. My daughter stared in amazement!

And yet in the middle of all that spectacle, the one thing missing was… Christmas.
Not a manger. Not a star. Not a shepherd. Not a single baby in a crib. Even the word itself had gone. It was “Xmas”, “Season”, “Festive Event”. A party without the birthday child. A story stripped of its opening line.
It reminded me of that scene in Friday Night Dinner where the son says, “Isn’t it a bit odd, us being Jewish and celebrating Christmas?” Mum replies, “Why?” He says, “Because it is a Christian holiday.” She pauses and says, “It is not.”
It used to be a joke. Now it feels like a shop policy.

For a moment, I felt like Christians had been politely uninvited. As if the world had taken the feast, kept the lights, the food, the music, the glitter, and gently pushed away the Christ it was all built around. It is a strange thing, to feel like a guest in your own holy day.

But then something shifted in me. A warmer thought began to grow.
The very first Christmas looked a lot like this.

Nobody noticed. Nobody was waiting. There were no fireworks, no shop displays, no banners saying “Welcome Saviour”. Just a tired couple in a borrowed stable. Just a baby born where animals sleep. Just a single star and some shepherds who were working the night shift. God arrived so quietly that only the ones who were listening in the dark heard the news.
And yet that quiet birth split history in half.
Which made me realise: maybe Christ has always been most himself at the edges. Not in the grand displays. Not in the spotlight. But in the humble, the hidden, the overlooked places.

Maybe the absence of Christ in the shops is not the end of Christmas, but the beginning of something truer.
Maybe when the high street forgets Him, the home remembers Him more deeply. Maybe when “Xmas” replaces “Christ” outside, His name becomes sweeter when spoken around the dinner table. Maybe the less the shops say about Jesus, the more meaningful it becomes when a parent tells the story to a child at bedtime.

And there is joy in that.
Because the world, even when it does not use His name, is still hungry for everything He brings. People still long for light in the darkness. They still want peace on earth, even if they cannot explain it. They still reach for love that does not run out. They still gather round a table because something in us knows we are made for community.

Even the inflatable penguin wearing a Santa hat is trying, in its own confused way, to point towards joy!

The lights are still searching for the Light of the World. The gifts are still longing for the Gift beyond all price. The songs are still echoes of the angels’ first words: “Do not be afraid. I bring you good news of great joy for all people.” (Luke 2:10)
And that is where the hope lives.

Not in complaining that the shops have lost the plot, but in quietly living the plot ourselves. Not by fighting the culture, but by filling the spaces we do have with wonder, prayer, story, and love.
We can put a nativity in the window and know it shines brighter now than it did 30 years ago. We can sing a carol and trust it still touches something ancient in the soul. We can teach a child that Emmanuel means God with us, and watch their eyes widen as if they had heard it for the first time.
We can light one candle and let it speak louder than a thousand LEDs.
In a world that has forgotten the centre of Christmas, even the smallest act of Christlike love becomes radiant.
And maybe that is the gift God is giving back to us: not a loud Christmas, but a meaningful one. Not a cultural tradition, but a living story. Not a holiday we share with the world, but a hope we gently carry into it.

So yes, I walked out of the shop a little sad. But also more hopeful than before. Because maybe Christ is not missing after all. Maybe He is still exactly where He has always chosen to be: not in the flashy places, but in the quiet ones. Waiting to be noticed. Ready to be welcomed. Alive in every loving heart that whispers, “This is why we celebrate.”

Peter Hellard-Malt.
November/December 2025

Seek Peace

Photo: Kew Garden, Gill Henwood

My friend Gill Henwood’s photographs and thoughts regularly appear on this blog. The other day she sent me this photograph of a winter cherry tree at Kew and the thoughts it inspired.

“Here’s a beautiful winter cherry in the Japanese garden at Kew Gardens, yesterday.
The tree is a cloud of delicate blossom in the winter gardens of bare skeletal deciduous trees and dark sombre conifers.
For Gill it speaks to her of “Hope, for peace in the world. Prayers, for Japan and so many places where natural events challenge, and wars destroy. Trust, in the presence of God’s cloud of peace with us, is often unnoticed.
May the gracious, comforting Spirit bring the peace that passes all understanding to sore hearts.”

At a time when intense negotiations are going on about brokering peace in the Ukraine and in the aftermath of Gaza, the photo brings a glimpse of purity in what feels like a dark, sombre and impure world.

What I am constantly hearing and seeing is despair, uncertainty and a sense of futility. The question : What can I do or make a difference, in the sense of not being in a position to affect real change in the International struggles in our world?

Perhaps we could take a more local and personal view.
The late Rabbi Lionel Blue once told a story about meeting  an old-time party member of the Soviet Communist Party. He spoke in tears that the Revolution got hijacked because of personal ambition, greed and power. “We tried to understand society to change it, but we didn’t start with ourselves.”  (Rabbi Blue).

That is where we all can start – with ourselves. We can cultivate gentleness, kindness, care, approach-ability. We can and should stand up for goodness in our society and acceptance of others. Perhaps even a bit more listening to others rather than telling them what they should be like or believe. Above all we should open our hearts to a hope which isn’t just a feeling but a prayer and an action.

A little story I love tells me that one thing we can avoid is believing that we have nothing to contribute to growing peace in our world.

A little sparrow laid on its back with its legs in the air. Another sparrow walked past and asked the sparrow in its back what it was doing. It replied that it had heard that the sky was going to fall in and thought that it should try and help hold it  up. The other sparrow laughed and said, “You’re only a little sparrow with little legs. How can you hold up the whole sky?The little sparrow lying on the floor with its legs in the air, turned its head and said:“I know, but one does what one can.”

Doing what we can is about living in peace and harmony with others and with creatures and the world in which we live. It’s about rejoicing in creation and protecting the part of our world where God has placed us. It’s also about refusing to let our world be taken over by those who would dominate, abuse, bully and live self-centred lives.
It’s about allowing God’s beauty, joy, hope radiate from our lives just as it radiates from the Winter Cherry Tree at Kew.

It’s about praying this prayer, written for world peace in 1978. By praying and seeking to live it out in our lives may we recognizing that we have just increased peace in the world.

A Prayer for World Peace, 1978

We pray for the power to be gentle;
the strength to be forgiving;
the patience to be understanding;
and the endurance to accept the consequences
of holding on to what we believe to be right.

May we put our trust in the power of good to overcome evil
and the power of love to overcome hatred.

We pray for the vision to see and the faith to believe
in a world emancipated from violence,
a new world where fear shall no longer lead men or women to commit injustice,
nor selfishness make them bring suffering to others.

Help us to devote our whole life and thought and energy
to the task of making peace,
praying always for the inspiration and the power
to fulfil the destiny for which we and all men and women were created.

– Author Unknown, Offered by Beth Amyot
published by Xavier University Cinncinati

[Mr G & Gill Henwood. 11th December 2025]

Advent Hope

Fallen leaves / buds appearing. Advent hope. photos by Gill Henwood.

ADVENT HOPE

Last leaves turning gold and falling from a Japanese maple, on Advent Sunday.
Nearby, very long established daffodil shoots seeking the short daylight,
waiting for their time in Spring.

Waiting, watching, sensing the time is coming: themes of Advent.
Hope, for light in darkness.
Longing, for the approaching birth.
Trembling, with anticipation for new life.
Fearing, for hostile forces muster.

“Rejoice, rejoice,
Emmanuel shall come to us
O Israel”

The angels will sing:
“Glory to God in the highest 
and peace on earth
to all people of good will”

Our Advent Hope.

[Advent reflection by Gill Henwood]

I Believe ~ Niceae 1700

Basilica of Saint Neophytos is the name of the underwater basilica in Lake İznik, modern-day Turkey.
This was where those who gathered for the Council of Nicaea .

The Telling of our Faith.

Over the past weekend, the Christian Church has been celebrating one of the most important anniversaries of our faith, the 1,700 Anniversary of the First Ecumenical Council which was held in Nicaea, (now Iznik) in what is now Turkey. Until 325AD, the Christian Church was established in various centres of mission but, as it grew, it was also dealing with persecution on a large scale from those who did not want the Christian faith, rooted in the life, witness and teaching of Jesus Christ to succeed.
Whilst we have never been free from persecution nor strangers to martyrdom, the period until the 4th century was particularly one where many Christians were put to death or tortured for their faith.
In the 4th Century, under the reign of Emperor Constantine, things changed. His mother, Helen(a) had become a Christian during a time in the Holy Land and her faith influenced her son. Though he did not immediately become a Christian himself, (though he died one), he declared that Christianity would become the official religion of the Roman Empire. Peace and stability came to the Church.

Except, not quite!
When people are up against terrible suffering, persecution and death, there is a unity which concentrates everyone on survival and on being loyal to what they believe. It brings with it its own high level of support for each other. There is no time or freedom to concentrate on anything but holding each other together, caring, loving and sustaining each other in mutual hope and encouragement.
When danger passes, the personal relief can sometimes give people the opportunity to face issues of disagreement which trouble them and can produce division.
That is what happened and the church faced differences in practice and custom caused by not being able to worship and prayer together.
Things like the date when the Church observed Easter and  other practices needed to be dealt with but the Church was facing its biggest ever challenge at Nicaea. At this moment in the story of the Church the biggest and most important question of our faith had to be faced: Who is Jesus?
Under its new found peace, Christianity had to face the question about the nature of Jesus. Followers of a theologian called Arius maintained that Jesus was a created being, who whilst a good man and infused with the vision of God, was not God.
More than anything else before or since this view threatened to destroy the church. The fierce debate it created division amongst Christians and everything we stand for was in danger of falling apart.
So concerned was Constantine that the Christian faith he had chosen to bring stability and harmony to his Empire was itself in grave crisis, that he called together Christians leaders at Nicaea.
This was the first Synod or gathering and here the question about who Jesus truly is, was debated.
The Council rejected the teaching of Arius and affirmed the total belief that Jesus is one in substance with his Father; that both are God together with the Trinitarian belief that the Holy Spirit is part of a three-fold God.
At Nicaea, the Church set out our belief in a ‘Statement’ or ‘Creed which became, at one level the ‘Constitution of the Christian Faith.
Though it was refined and deepened at the Council of Constantinople  in 381AD and again at Chalcedon in 451, it has become the foundational statement of the Christian faith’  and it forms an essential part of our expression of personal and corporate belief to be recited by the whole Church, Roman Catholic, Orthodox, Anglian, Methodist, every Sunday.
Essentially it is summarized by the acclamation often made in worship.

This is our faith.
We believe in One God,
Father, Son and Holy Spirit.

Pope Leo gathered last weekend gathered with 27 other Christian leaders to celebrate the 1700th anniversary in Nicaea, modern-day Iznik, Türkiye. Pope Leo  thanked Patriarch Bartholomew I, Ecumenical Patriarch of Constantinople, for his “great wisdom and foresight” in calling for Church leaders to celebrate this important anniversary together.
He spoke of the power of the Nicaean Creed to “invite Christians, even today ,to ask ourselves who is Jesus Christ for us personally,“ especially when there is a risk of reducing Jesus Christ, “to a kind of charismatic leader or superman, a misrepresentation that ultimately leads to sadness and confusion.”
The Pope went on to point out that reducing Jesus to an intermediary between God and humanity, and therefore not Divine, ignores the reality of the Incarnation.”“But if God did not become man, how can mortal creatures participate in His immortal life?” asked Pope Leo. “What was at stake at Nicaea, and is at stake today, is our faith in the God who, in Jesus Christ, became like us to make us ‘partakers of the divine nature’.”

He went on to say that, because the Creed was professed by all Christian Churches and Communities, “it is of fundamental importance in the journey that Christians are making towards full communion. Faith in one Lord Jesus Christ, the only Son of God, born of the Father before all ages…consubstantial with the Father (Nicene Creed) is a profound bond uniting all Christians.”

For me, reciting the Creed grounds my faith in Jesus who, in his birth, life, teaching, death and resurrection, speaks to me of the immensity of God’s Love, for me personally; for each other;and of my love for God; and of the power of that love to embrace all. Telling the story of what God, the Holy Trinity has done for us and goes on doing,  and speaking it prayerfully at the heart of worship is a tremendous experience of belonging and believing which holds us in a deeply inclusive and profound relationship and so becomes the prayer which speaks from the heart of our living faith in God.

I believe!

[Mr G. 2nd December 2025]